hay ho

just wanted to tell everyone what a fab weekend I had, well mostly. I didn't get an interview at Oxford, yes, 85% of applicants that apply get an interview, and I was one of the 15%, how embarrasing, but on the good side, that was the only terrible thing that happened to me all weeekend, and now I can go to Leicester on the 7th of Decmber instead (a university more at my "real" level). Anyway... had fun on Saturday at Colemans, although Lucy wasn't there as she was in the Peak district, but we had Debbie and she's really nice, so the day went by quickly, we did all our jobs and chatted. At last the ladies know that I am back with Nick, I didn't know how to tell them, but I had to ask for Sunday off so that I could go to the theatre with him! So, after work, went home, found out about Oxford, and then went to Nick's (mum drove!), and realised I had left the tickets at my house, told Nick, he rang the theatre and it turned out that it started at seven anyway, not seven thirty, so his mum gave us a lift. We were just in time, we had gone to see the Jungle Book, and unfortunately, the mean age of the audience was seven. I was in a really bad mood due to Oxford, and so I wasn't really in the mood to laugh along with many small children, and the first half passed without revelation. Anyway, then in the opening of the second half Nick jumped two inches out of his chair when the "baddie" came on, it was so funny, it was so obvious where he was coming on from and at what time, even I didn't jump! I haven never laughed so much, and after that the rest of the performance was humerous. The songs were the best, they kept repeating a single line in each one, and the tunes were really mournful, with obvious rhymes, apart form the last song (talk about saving the best till last!), which was just fantastic (suddenly). Anyway, it finished, and it was really cold, so Nick's mum came nad picked us up. We went back to Nick's had take away pizza and watched family guy and American Dad! lol, We had no rehearsal in the mornign as Mr B. is also in the Peak District so we did not do much all afternoon and then went Christmas shopping after lunch. A perfect day.

Came home, cooked dinner for the family, we ate, mum bought jaffa cakes as a special treat (we don't have biscuits in the house), and Andrena has come up with a brill idea of a Christmas holiday! It's all good!

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I'm not particularly happy atm. I've had a few nice days, yesterday went and did salsa again, which was fun, next wekk I move up to the beginner group (atm I am in some "I don't know anything about salsa group"), which is a lot more exciting than it sounds. Spent the night at Nick's, as I was going to be up to go to the RE trip early today. Woke at six, and left his house, unintentionally waking everybody in the house up on my way out. Walked to Tom's and from there went to school. We went to the RE trip. on the way there I read random book that a year twelve recommended to me, it was surprising and unnecessarily rude, but had nothing else to read lol. RE lecture was good, we had two speakers, one, Peter Vardy was really good and the other one was really mediocre, lol, but the last talk he did on the problem of evil (one of my favourite topics), was really good, and he ended it very well, lol, so that was all fun. On the coach on the way back texted Nick to ask what time he owld be going to panto, but apparently he doesn't want see me beofrehand, as he has to have dinner (my mum says that I am being to sensitive, as he does have to eat) but he didn't seem that bothered, and so we might see each other today or not, the fact that he is sitting in a hall somewhere half a mile form where I live is obviously beside the point totally. Anyway, a mixture of Tom and stupid book I am reading has made me really paranoid, and am slowly cracking up, am going to turn up to rehearsal that I don't have to attend, and ask whether we can talk, can't do it tomorrow as we are going to the theatre to see the jungle book (my 18th birthday present), I'm so cross with everything atm, I wish I didn't hae to play games with peoplel, and that they could just say how they felt. I think this is also partly to do with the fact that I haven't eaten for a while and am over-tired. Frustratingly, still love him though, ironic!

on fire, (joke relating to being burnt) lol

Haven't been online for ages, well, not long enough to blog, anyway.
On Friday I burnt myself with the iron! I now have a massive scar scab thing about four inches up from my wrist, and looks like I have started mutilating myself - I have not! Went to Lucy's party on Friday night, really good. Lol, me and Nick were talking about how we prob spend too much time together, and so for the first half of the night I was determined to stay out of his way, lol, and so I had fun and danced etc, and then saw him for the last hour and a half or so, lol, it worked very well, and was a really good party - she has loads of talented musicians who are her friends (Nick got massive blisters on his fingers!). Went to work on Saturday, duidn't do mcuh, apart from all our thousands of jobs that we now have to do since our appraisals, i weighed out a few sweets, and did bits of everything, lol. In the evening went to Nicks, to find him dipping his fingers in vinegar (apparently it makes them stronger), watched half of the house of flying daggers, then had pizza, then watched the other half, lol, then went to bed, its a really long film, lol.
Anyway, Sunday, woke up early, dragged ourselves out of bed to get to school for 9:30 so that we could go to a loves labours rehearsal in the DW, it was actually really fun, I love people that do drama, they're so funny. Went back to Nick's afterwards, and then got the ten past three home. Didn't do mcuh in the evening apart from watch the pilot episodes of Ally McBeal, and do a bit of homework, oh and watched Notting Hill, its so funny, Hugh Grant is wonderful! lol
Monday, got up, late as I was tired from having watched Notting Hill, then once I had got ready mum offered to give us a lift as Jenny has buggered her knee up. So we (jenny) was lectured in the car all the way to school, but it meant that we diodn't have to stand in the freezing cold waiting for the bus! yay!. Got to school, didn't do much, it was really terrible though, p.2. I got off, so went ot the canteen, and Nick was there, I didn't see him (as I am blind), and he didnt say! "hi" as he thought that I was ignoring him, why would I ignore him? anyway, after that terribleness, had a really nice rest of the day, and went for coffee and cake, which was very nice, although Nick did steal the last bit of my iced bun! lol, and I declared I would never marry him, as he would just steal my food all the time! lol. Anyway, came home via the bus, with Katie M, her brother and Sando, so it was just really funny. Got home, ate tea, watched the Simpsons, and then went online. I am just about to go to panto rehearsals in a few mins, and so am debating whether to get changed or go in my school uniform, lol. Its all fun.

dum de dum

wow, my titles are getting worse and worse. Anyway, to day I have had fun, although have been quite tired as I stupidly stayed up to watch Lord Of the Rings last night, even though I have already seen it. So today, was tired, but we still got to the bus on plenty of time, got to school (late), and had frees first thing, did my English homework, but couldn't print it off as all the school printers had gone weird, and none of them would work. Had Ebglish, uneventful, and then break, in theatre studies, we did a speed run of our paly and then talked for the rest of the lesson, but I really need to know my lines better, its appalling, anyway. At lunch Nick had further maths, so I went into town with Ali and Polly, but got back to school right at the end of lunch, and didn't see him, he didn't turn up to registration and it turned out that further maths had been cancelled as Mr Pinshon (?) hadn't arrived. But, nm, so i was a little annoyed that I hadn't seen him all day, but he was at the foyer at then end of the day, so it was okay, i would normally have seen him after school but i had a theatre studies rehearsal, and so couldnt. We had our theatre rehearsal, and Mr B. said it was good, which was amazing (although we thought it was quite good too), to the last group he said they were a shambles!

We went to deep pan afterwards, lol, in true theatre studies style, and I am now stuffed, got the 6:10 back with Polly, which was a riot, lol, oh and I haven't said a word about our berets, we found these really cool hats (berets) in the drama workshop for our play, and they are really cool, so atm we are going around wearing them, they are grey and so match the school uniform, which makes it funnier. Anyway, came home, and am now writing this, and about to go out to my pantomime rehearsal.

I have realised that the only bad thing about blogging at this time, is that you don't get to hear what happens in my evening, but nothing exciting happens, so its probably just as well! lol

on and on

Haven't blogged for a while, haven't really been on. Not done much, a quick run down on my weekend; Friday, went to panto rehearsal after school, was fu, but I sang appallingly, but it was still fun and am making good friends with Dawn, the girl that plays Robinson Crusoe. Also, John told me about these salsa classes he goes to, they sound really good and i might join.

Saturday I spent at Colemans, we had our appraisals, we are all fine, but we don't do enough jobs, lol, the same as last year, but my wages went up, minimally, lol, so its all fun. We had a really busy day the only things I had time to do were stock sheets and customers, we made 2,200, which is pretty decent at this time of year, although we needed to make 3,000 to beat the week we had last year, nm. Sat eveing went home and changed and then headed to Nicks, we were going to his dads birthday thing at the greyhound track. I had spent the day umming and erring whether to get him anything, then decided on just a card (apparently a pot plant wasn't the 'thing') and then I didn't even give him a card as it seemed out of place. Anyway, walked to the dog's, its 'past' the regional, we were told, like, a mile past, lol. Anyway, and then we had dinner, and betted and had general enjoyment, Lorna (dads 'new' wife (shes not really new anymore) ) and Liam, Lorna's son were also there, and we all had fun (michael, Nick's bro was also there). Stayed there until, err, I'm actually not sure of the time, but it was quite late, went back to Nick's stayed the night. However, had to wake up really early (well kind of) as he was going to his rehearsal at 9:30, so got up after he left, spoke to his mother, nearly tidied his room, lol, and then his mother told me she was going at eleven, meaning, I thought that she meant, could I leave before then. I said that it didn't matter anyway as I was leaving at half ten, but she said that that was probably easier as she wouldn't have to give me a key and show me how to work the alarm etc, but I thought that that was really sweet, that, I don't know, she would let me stay in the house on my own, etc.

Went home Saturday morning, went ot the coffee tavern as I was in the middle of reading Northanger Abbey, but it was really loud in there, as there were loads of school kids, so in the end I went to the co-op to buy some food for tonight. I had bought potatoes form Waitrose in the morning, but htay hadn't had any decent beef, so I waited, but they didn't have any beef fillets at all, so now I'm not sure what we are doing for tea. Walked home with the rest of the shopping, got in, asked mum how Mark was (random guy that mum went out with last night), apparently wasn't brill, and had lunch, now am trying to put off my philosophy homework, again, lol. Its all fun.

hey hey

I have had a good day to day, well, lol, most of it. Got mockedi n front of my English class as I was meant ot be doing this presentation on legalese, and Ms had asked me to get a bit of hansard to look at, cos tht was legalese, got a bit, read it out in my presentation, and then shes tells me its not legalese, it sounds stupid, but it was really embarrasing.

Felt really sorry for Allie today, her drama is not going well, and it brought it back to me that the performace is less than a week away, so we really worked during the lesson today and went through a large run through in the lesson, and although there were a few minor disputes, it was really good, and we went through the whole play, hopefully our good work will continue tomorrow...?

Had debate club today, it was really good, we argues about that case with the Manchester lady who wants parents to have the right to know if their children are having an abortion under the age of sixteen (i think of course they should have the right), there were quite a few people there and humerous points were mentioned thorughout, a real 'gem' of a debate! lol

After school went shopping for presents for Lucy, Jess and Nick's dad, lol, bought them, went back to Nick's, lol, and then went to Deep Pan for Lucy and Jess' meal, it was really nice, until about half-way through, when I was talking to Haggis, who said he might quit the play, I said it was a bit late for that wasnt it to which he replied "shut the fuck up, you're as bad as my fucking mother" he wasn't joking, he was being completely serious, and I have a mad hatred for people that directly sware at me (I don't mind if they sware around me), I don't sware at them and I expect them to do the same, it's the rudest thing that I can think of, and if I ever sware at someone then you will know that its actually someone else trying to impersonate me, or I am scarily cross, you will want to stay out of my way etc. Anyway, so after Haggis swore, I got really cross, ate incredibly fast (i tend to do that when I am angry) and then just sat talking to Nick and then left early, but it was really good before then, a load of people were there, and it was nice to talk to some people that I never really talk to at school. Went back to Nick's and his mum gave me a lift back becuase she is wonderful and nice, lol. Oh and NIck texted his dad to see what they were doing for his birthday and words to the effect of would he like me to join them, he said "yes of course, am glad you're back together xxx", it was just so sweet, lol, yes, i realise I am over sentimental, but it makes me happy, lol. Things between me and Nick are amazingly wonderful, lol, the world, in general, is a fine place to be in.

And remeber everybody, next weeks assembly topic is "road safety!"

tum te tum

Haven't done much today, quite tired, as I went to bed at half past ten last night! (late I know), as I decided to watch Ally McBeal, it may be 'trash', but thats why I love it. Seemed to be let out of all my lessons early today for various reasons. Break time wasn't so brill, I thought that me and Nick isolated ourselves quite a lot, a huge amount in fact, but there isn't much i can do now. Still dont have any information from Leeds, I am not sure whether they have given me a place or not, its nearly been a week, even if they put something as second class surely they would have got it by now? I'm getting over Manchester, lol, I talked to Mr Davies and he said it was their loss (lol! more like their genius), and moping isnt going to change anything anyway. Haven't seemed to do much, just kind of wandered through the day. I'm worried though, I know it sounds stupid, but Nicks being really nice, like, really nice, I'm scared part of me thinks that he's being nice to me because he's trying to hide his feelings that he actually doesn't think its working out, but thinks he'll leave it for a few weeks, as it seems a bit mean getting rid of me as he has only just asked me out. I know that seems silly, but you know when something is going perfectly and so you start to think that there must be a problem coming up... well thats what it seems like, I can't believe that it is like this and normal... anyway.

Stopped for a bit of a read at the Coffee Tavern on the way back, read James Herriot (an old favourite) and came home, to an empty house (thank god) Jenn's not back yet and mum has gone to her old school to collect a jewellery bench, she took John' car so that she could drive it bakc and so she has promised she is going to go out with him for dinner tonight! Not that that will give him hope or anything. Anyway, I am ready for a peaceful afternoon and evening dong nothing, all I have to do is print a sheet of paper out, which I could do period 1 tomorrow, and that is it, ha ha.

Btw, if anyone know's Mr Forsyths e-mail address home preferably, but if not school, then can you give it to me? but if poss email it, as im not sure that he'd be thrilled that him address has been posted on the internet.

from dooblie to dooblie

Had a really mixed day today. The lessons were okay, apart from the fact that we did no work in theatre studies and we perform in a week. Lunch was quite good, just basically had fun and didn't do much else, after school went to town with Nick, bought deoderant (vital), and then went back to school to wait for him to finish a clarinet lesson, then we went for coffee at nero's, I had hot chocolate and it was the most appalling thing i had ever had, they had no cream, it was watery and the milk was off, and i cant believe i actually payed money to drink it. Thats how rubbish it was. But Nick was wonderful, I have moaned so much recently and he has been so nice, and just generally made me happy. So got on the bus really happy, went home really happy, later on went onto UCAS, not happy, i havent got in to stupid manchester, and i really wanted to go there, i havent even got an interview or anything, so i must have been way off target, and really rubbish, feel crap, and as though i am just not going to get into any university at all. really annoyed, and lets face it, i'm not going to get into anywhere anyway if i do get offers because as my mother says, i just can't expect all 'a's' cos im just not going to get them, and all my universties are based on three A's. apart from leicester which i dont want to get into anyway. I dont know why I even bothered wasting an application on Oxford, if even Manchester aren't going to accept me. I texted NIck, as I had to tell him about his email tht id cheked for him, and i told him that i didnt get in, and he didn't even say 'never mind', no sympathy at all, he who said that id definitely get into manchester, so now im irritated at him too (altho only a little, as he probably duznt realise how upset i am) and just really frustrated. I also hate the UCAS system, why dont they email you? or post something on time, I still havent got anything from leeds from the 3rd of Novemeber, and Manchester didnt even send my anythnig saying that they wer studying my application. Wow im annoyed, and wow im failing.

dum de dum

lol, haven't blogged for several days! lol, obiovusly my life is jsut so busy atm! lol, I got a conditional offer at leeds university! which is incredibly exciting, lol, well, if I can get three A's, but even so, still quite exciting. Haven't done much else, stayed at Nicks last night in the end, there was a party but couldn't get a lift there or back, but it was nice, didn't do much though. Had to leave on the eleven o'clock bus this morning as Nick is going to Southampton to see Athlete in Portsmouth tonight!

It was really terrible on Friday, my sister kept nagging me to pay for her to go for tea at the coffee tavern, but I kept refusing, and it looked terrible in front of Nick, and I looked such a cheapskate, but I didn't have any money at all, so i was really annoyed at Jenn moaning so much, especially when she had just got payed that day anyway! Mum's really annoyedwith Jenn at the moment too, as she is wearing too much make up and so mum has banned her wearing any, much to Jenny's distaste, and her tears...

I have been keeping happy though, and am now determined to become politically aware, on Saturday I purchased the Telegraph (apparently its better then the Times?) and well read it, (duh), lol, i think it will take me a long time to know the kind of knowledge necessary to be thought of as an intelligent person, but it is a start, lol.

At the moment I am doing my philosophy coursework (still), and am just about to go to our local supermarket (unfortunately the Co-op) and buy something for tea, lol, I have made a habit of cooking for my family every Sunday evening, I quite enjoy it though. We have to hava an early dinner tonight as we are going to see Toyah Wilcox, some old famous woman who my mother adores, as she is wearing a pair of my mother's earrings, a pair she made, not just a pair tht belonged to may mother! lol, ooh, also its exciting as my mother is now displaying her jewellery at a gallery in Mayfair, yes, London Mayfair! lol, she is more excited than anybody else! but it is still very exciting. Thats all the news for now!

and on... in happy bliss

Had a nice day today, well mostly. At school John Bell came to talk, he is a famous Christian speaker from an Ionian community, the RE students, including myself went and heard him periods three and four, and then there was a big lecture 5 and 6. The Lecture three and four was really good; it was about miracles, and he talked about the feeding of the five thousand, and how it wasn't a miracle as that Jesus 'magic-ed' the extra food, but when the rest of the audience saw a small boy bring what he had, then they all got what they had brought as well. It was really teaching us that the miracle was not physical, but instead that the example of one small boy could change a large group of people. I have realised lately that I have been quite harsh to everyone and very to the point, easily frustrated with people and quick to judge. However, I guess I realised that i should be much gentler to everyone, and that i should be alot more generous, and to be too hasty is a shortcoming indeed, and so I am trying to stop, whether it will hold good is another matter I suppose.

When John Bell held the lecture in 5+6 I was hoping to be given some profound message as well, but I couldn't hear it very well, as almost the entire sixth form did not find the lecture necessary and so began talking among themselves! It was so rude, I just couldn't believe it, half the problem was that we had to sit on the floor so that there was enough room for everybody and so it meant that it was very uncomfortable after ten minutes, but it was just so terrible, there were people that were lying across the floor!

Apart from that I had fun, at lunch we had the first debate club for the year, which was fun, we did 'survival of the fittest, or everyone helping each other', which is the best, we discussed and it was nice to get back into it.

Had a free 7+8 and Nick had one p.8 and so we went to his early, which was nice, I left on the ten past five, and so i feel as though I have been home for ages. I had salmon for tea which was very nice, and at the moment have a large craving for a microwaveable steamed toffee pudding thing, strange i know, but they are surprisingly very nice, i would recommend one if you haven't tried one, i would expect the vast majority of people not to have tried one!

Got my Ally McBeal DVD's in the post today (bought them from e-bay), and so I got home and watched a couple of episodes of that, it was really fun, lol, I realise how rubbish it is, but still find it way too entertaining, lol.

Anyway, having fun! lol, apart from with several people still trying to persuade me that NIck and me shoudln't be going out, as if by them talking to me I'm suddenly going to turn around to NIck and say 'You know I think those people are right, we shouldn't be going out, well see you around', its not going to happen, and really, i dont want it to, so i wish they would stop trying to persuade me, by all means they should tell me there opinion, but after the first five minutes, they should just stop!

and on it goes...

lol, still going out with Nick, to some peoples amazement, its all fun. Didn't do much today, had various lessons, all which i was allowed to leave early for various reasons (ill children, ill teachers etc) held a supposed meeting for year 9's from school house, none of who turned up, which i was really annoyed about, as i had spent the whole of registration asking them all to come to the meeting. Therefore, in my free I wrote a note in the bulletin declaring that every year 9 was to come to a meeting tomorrow, so that i can make them do an assembly. We are having two assemblies as we are in the common rooms, and the other one is being done by the year elevens, I wrote a really rubbish one myself, and I am going to make them read it out, if no one has made one themselves, but there are some really nice girls in that year, so they will probably do something. For Wednesday activities, went to Nicks, well its a kind of activity... didn't do much else, but went to the coffee tavern for tea, as my sis really wanted to, which was fun! well, we talked to John, who's still depressed about my mother, lol. Its all good fun for everyone! lol

heh hey

Well, sorry I haven't been on in the last couple of days (well anyone who reads this continually will probably be glad as its way too long, but anyway...). Well exciting things have happened in time i have been away. Sunday night, Nick found out about Dan from Tom and texted me immediately saying that he couldn't believe I cared so little about him. I was shocked, he actually cared about me? and i texted him back telling him that, he said of course he did, and that he refused to argue over text (I'd also said some other stuff), and that was it, he said he'd see me tomorrow. So Monday (tomorrow) came, and he completely ignored me, point blank, no smile, no nothing. I was disappointed, we'd been getting on soo well. But that was it, and so I went on my normal day, he had a band practice after school with Allie, Watkins and Tom, and felt that they all disproved (as well they should) about Dan and so would be all oohey, therefore it was completely incomprehensible to me, when i got a text at 5:45, from Nick, telling me that he was really sorry he'd been oohey, but it was just because he had realised he could never go out with me ever again (in hindsight thats ironic). We texted each other for a while, and then he said if i was at home could i ring him, because it would be much quicker to talk, than to text.

Obviously I was at home, and so rang him, and we talked for a couple hours, about everything that had happened, how he couldn't believe that i had got off with some random guy, which to be fair, was my view too. Anyway, from that we went to why we had broken up in the first place, and how terrible it was, and how all he wanted to do was go back out with me, even with Dan and everything etc. So we talked about that for a while, but I had to go to the theatre, as i was going to see a play, and so had to get off the phone, so we decided to meet for coffee the next day to talk things over more.

I went to the cinema and told Katie and Lucy, they were not impressed, they thought i should wait longer, lol, probably not as long as the play went on for though. The acting was brilliant, but the script really could have been cut down, they did the best dance at the ned though, but it was quite random.

Came back, went to sleep etc, and then woke up at 6:00 again, as the bus times are different, and then got on the bus etc, got to school, had free's one and two (Nick also has those frees) and he came and sat next to me, and well, byt the end of the free we were holding hands. He left the room (I had free's three and four too) and everyone jumped on me telling me what a nutcase I was, Matt said the my 'cool', had just plumeted, etc and felt generally oohey, but was still going out wit Ncik etc, so it was ok, lol. The rest of the day passed, had a driving lesson, in which two really rude guys made faces at me at a junction, but apart from that was good. Then after school went ot town with Nick, to get a present for his brother, we ended up having coffee, and chatting (although we went to John Lewis, and their hot chocolate was not as good as i had remebered, they only gave us half a cup each), lol, and then i went home. He rang me while I was walking to home to say that he had told his mother, lol, and apart from being confused she was fine, lol, long story. So, lol, life is all exciting, apart from peoples negative opinions, they're not very exciting, at all.